Friday, August 03, 2007

My thoughts about taking big steps

I’ve had a lot of time to think today, and as our next visit is coming up soon, my thoughts have been primarily focussed on Him. Although it’s been the usual thoughts of how much I miss Him and how great it’s going to be to see Him again, my mind has been wandering to the more important issues that we will have to face soon.

At the end of this year I am making a rather big move in deciding to move in with Him. It’s not just about being big because it’s the first time I’ll be moving out of home, or the fact that I’ve never lived with a man before, or even that I’m moving towns after living in the same one for over two decades. It isn’t just one of these things, it’s all of them. I know I’m in for one hell of a journey, and I’m extremely excited!

The move is inching closer every day, some days it feels like it won’t ever get here, and other days it feels like I can almost touch it (the switch between these two is frustrating!). In thinking about moving, I’m also thinking about the fact that we’ve discussed collaring, and how we both feel about the topic. We both want to have a ceremony to signify me officially becoming His. In saying this, I’ve been thinking about the fact that I’ll be wearing something of His and I kind of want Him to do the same. (It’s here that I can’t give too much away in how I’m thinking, as He reads my blog). I’ve got it planned as to what His gift from me will be. The collaring ceremony will be even more special, as this is our first Christmas together and we’ll probably do it around then, hopefully on Christmas day.

I have done a bit of research online and have looked at how ceremonies are generally conducted etc, and the one thing that stood out was the fact that “vows” are exchanged, like at a wedding ceremony. So, when I knew this I thought of writing something myself, which will (hopefully) express how much He, and our relationship means to me. (Again, I can’t say too much, as I know He’ll be reading this at some point). Anyway, I started writing these not long after doing my research, and although I thought they were finished, I have added more to them today. Maybe I’ll change them between now and then, maybe I won’t, but for the moment, I’m happy with what I’ve written.

I’m excited that our lives are coming together, and that as each day passes by, it is a step closer to me becoming His, even more than what I already am.

I wish you all the very best, and I hope that we all find that special someone/Master who brings out the best in His or Her submissive toy.