Masturbation Week

Master is coming to visit soon :-) He will be here for close to a week. And what a week of heaven it's going to be!

Although I'm not normally a shy person, I am when it comes to initiating anything sexual or masturbating in front of Him. It's not that I don't love masturbating for Him, I just find it a little difficult openly masturbating when we're not doing anything sexual at the time, say for instance watching tv or something like that. Mind you, masturbating while I'm watching tv doesn't seem to be a problem normally. Not that anyone is watching then.

I'm comfortable with who and what (a masturbator) I am, I'm just not accustomed to openly masturbating for someone. This is something that I've been told that I have to work on. While He's here, He wants to see the real me, the true me, the masturbator in me.

He's told me that whenever I get the urge to masturbate, He wants me to. And while sometimes He may join in, other times He won't, and at other times He'll just continue what He's doing. I'm going to try my best to please Him and show Him the real me, but I know it's not going to be easy.

I'm sure I"ll feel more comfortable because I'm in my own home, but there's just one thing I'm concerned about, and this is what has been my only concern. I want to masturbate openly for Him, and do it when I feel like it. Although, I'm concerned that when He sees me for me, and sees just how much I masturbate, that He'll think it's excessive and that I do it too frequently.

I know I have to get past this concern, and I want to. So I guess the only way to do that is to show Him the true masturbator in me, and hope that He likes what He sees and doesn't think I'm too excessive with my play time.

We have agreed that the week will basically consist of masturbation, sleeping, eating and not much else. This suits me fine! :-) He asked me on the phone last night how I wanted the days to go, and I told Him the truth...

I want us to wake up in the morning, and before we do anything, I want to masturbate for a good hour and a half / two hours (this is my usual masturbation time). Then we'll get up and have breakfast and have a shower etc. Following this, I want us to masturbate some more, probably for the same amount of time. After this, we'll have lunch and probably relax a bit. Maybe watch some tv or read a magazine or something. During this time, I'll probably still have one hand between my legs, diddling my clit, getting ready for the next session. Then we'll get into the third session of the day, which will take us through until it's time to get dinner prepared. We'll have dinner, clean up, have our nightly shower, maybe watch some more tv (or put a blue movie on) and start the next session prior to bed.

I love the idea of having the freedom to masturbate for as long as I want, whenever I want, for the whole time He's here. It's an incredible turn on.

I was told last night that I'd be going shopping while He was here. I wasn't quite sure what He meant, but I was soon to find out. He said that I was to go grocery shopping. "okay sure, mundane job to get food in between our masturbation sessions. yep righto". Wrong! Yeah sure, we've got to eat, but that's not what I was going shopping for. At this point, I was told that I'd be going to Woolies (supermarket) and I was going shopping for fruit and vegies. I was intrigued.

No, I'm not shopping for fruit and veg so that we can eat it...I have to go shopping, and I have to find fruit and veg that I want to use as dildo's to fuck myself with. Yes, that's right. Whether it be carrots, cucumbers or those buttenut pumpkins that are in that nice pearish kinda shape for me to shove up my cunt and make myself moan an groan while doing so. All I could manage to say was "that's interesting". And I thought it was.

Until I went into Woolies today to get some chocolate and started blushing as I saw the fruit and veg section. I tried so hard not to think about what I'd be doing the next time I walked in there, but boy was it difficult!!! I'm sure Master will find this very amusing.

See the thing that's been running through my mind is: What happens when I select the fruit/veg that I want to buy and I go to the checkout....it's just a normal day, just like any other, but here I am, at the checkout, probably buying nothing but fresh produce all phallic shaped. Will the checkout girl or guy pick up on that? Will they suspect what I'm going to do with the produce once I get home? Or will they just be oblivious to it? All I hope is that I'm not going to make it too obvious. God I hope I don't blush too much. It's certainly going to be an experience and a half for me.

The reason for purchasing the produce, other than for something new and different to use... is that Master wants me to masturbate in every room in the house. He wants me to be able to walk into a room and look at an object and know that I've masturbated myself to at least one orgasm with it. This has stemmed from what I've told Him previously about different household objects that I used to use when I was younger. You know, like the handle of a toothbrush (which is what I started with, apart from my fingers), or the handle of a hairbrush etc.

It's certainly going to be an interesing week, that's for sure!

Lucy

Just a thought...

I was out shopping one day and was doing some thinking, this is the result.


Am I clingy and needy because we've been together for so long and I'm in love with Him?
Or is it because He's my Master and I need to be submissive?

Lucy

Arse Fuck

It had been awhile since the last time my Master had fucked my arse, and although I was eager, I was a little concerned that maybe I wouldn't open up as easy as I should for Him.

I have been using my large buttplug, as He instructed me to do. Every time I masturbate, this is what fills my arse. It is quite a fair bit bigger than the old one, and feels so much better.

He wanted me to use the big one so that my arse would be used to having something large fill it. Needless to say, this worked. It really didn't take that much effort for Him to have His cock buried deep in my arse. I'm thoroughly pleased about this, especially considering my arse is His primary fuckhole.

God I really miss having my arse fucked by my Master!

It just feels so fucking good to have it full with His cock.

I can't wait for the next time......

Off the beaten track

Why is it that I’m submissive? This is a question that I’ve been asking myself for a little while now. Maybe it comes down to the fact that I’m just a little girl on the inside who wants to be taken care of. Maybe it’s because I want to let go of some control in one part of my life and let someone else make the decisions for me. Maybe I’m submissive because I put others first and this is just an extension of that.

All I know is that I love it. I love being told what to do, I love pleasing Him. I love knowing that me being pleased is not a top priority. I love that I have a job, and that job is me submitting to Him, and everything that comes with it.

I find it difficult to request what I want when it comes to sex. Perhaps that’s just because He’s my first and only partner (and He’s more experienced) or perhaps that’s just who I am.

I love that He takes control and tells me what to wear (or what not to wear), when I can and can’t masturbate, when I can and can’t orgasm.

I came across an interesting point on Persephone’s blog where her owners stated that she was thinking of her orgasm as being for her. They correct her and stated that it wasn’t for her and that nothing of her body is for her. “You feel the benefits of it, but it’s not for you”. This struck a chord with me, which rang so true. I know that the orgasm’s I have are because of Him allowing me to have them, but I always thought that it’s because He wants me to be pleased and obtain what I need. I’m sure this is true, but when looking at it from the other perspective, they aren’t for me. My orgasm’s are essentially for Him, after all, He’s the one that is either allowing or denying them.

I ahve obviously gotten off track and in a later post I shall address why I think I'm submissive (or I will try to at least).

Lucy

Devoting myself to Him

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