Oh god how I miss Him! His dominance. His control over me. I miss being submissive for Him, although He controls all that I do, even though He's not here. I miss Him checking to see if I'm wet and ready for Him, ready to do whatever He pleases with and to me.

The ache inside cannot be explained. You can never know what love truly is until you fully submit to another. I cannot help it! I love Him controlling me. I love His dominance, His force, the way He loves me!