HNT - Confidence

After losing 32kg (70.5lbs), I finally feel sexy naked and confident enough in how I look to share this picture (which bares much more of me than I have shown previously). Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday!

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* The only alteration I have made to this photo is removing identifying marks in order to protect my anonymity.

Ch...Ch...Ch...Changes

I have been working on this post for months now, but haven’t been satisfied enough with what I’ve written to publish it. My mind races with a million different thoughts that lead me down a million different paths, and that’s just one reason why this is so difficult. It’s hard to share what’s going on, when I’m still adjusting to it and working it out for myself.

It has been almost two years since I became sick and started losing weight. Almost two years that have been full of tears, determination, fears, sweat, uncertainty, self-doubt, pain, joy, happiness, adjustment and so much more. I am not the same person I was then. I couldn’t be with all the changes and everything that has happened.

As I write this, my total weight loss is 32kg (70.5lbs). I’ve lost 5 dress sizes and goodness only knows how many inches. These aren’t the only things I’ve lost; I’ve also lost my self-identity, self-consciousness, countless outfits that I adored and many other things. However, there are many things that I have gained over this time as well. A new self-identity, self-confidence that I have never known before, the freedom to walk into any clothing store and not having to worry about whether anything will fit me, and last but not least my health and knowing that I’ve added many more years to my life.

There are not enough words or enough space on my blog to explain all the ways I’ve changed (and no doubt you would be bored if I listed them all). However, I can share with you what all this has done for me. As clichéd as it sounds, this has been a big, long, eye-opening and extremely personal journey. I’ve done a lot of soul searching, a lot of thinking, and a mass of writing during this time. I’ve learnt and realised so much more about myself that I thought I would, and I’m better for it. I know myself, my emotions (and the reasons behind these) better than I ever have before. I believe I am a better me for going through this, because I have discovered the real and true me. I’m still adjusting to everything and probably will be for some time to come. After all, I haven’t reached my goal weight yet, but I am close.

Putting aside the obvious health benefits, the best part of this journey is how I now feel about myself. I never thought that I would be satisfied or content with being me. And many years ago I gave up on being the person I wanted to be. I had (grudgingly) accepted that I would always be fat and that that was just something I had to live with. How I feel about myself now, is something I only ever dreamed about, but never thought I would actually experience. For the very first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am truly happy with being who I am, with being me.

I am not perfect now that I’ve lost weight, and I never will be (but perfection is not my goal). I still have lessons to learn, and improvements to make and that’s okay. Just like it’s okay that there are physical aspects to my body that I would like to improve. However, if (for whatever reason) my body had to say the way it is right now, I would be content, I would be satisfied, but most of all I would be happy. I would be lying if I said that I found this easy. I haven’t. But to come out at the other end of this, knowing I’m a better (and healthier) version of me, is and has been worth it.

And it’s such a great feeling to finally feel sexy naked.

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I felt like joining in this week and showing off a healthier looking me. I'm much more confident these days, and although I still have a way to go to reach my goal weight, I love what I see in the mirror. Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday everyone!

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*And thanks again to Alec (Coy Pink's hubby) who helped me touch up this pic by photoshopping out my stained garage floor.

My New Bum

Here's me, modelling a pair of knickers that I bought a couple of weeks ago.
Talk about super comfy! :-)

I've titled this 'My New Bum' because that's what I've got. Since I've been losing weight, it's amazed me the shape different parts of my body have taken. More to the point that the shape I am now (and will become when I lose more and reach my goal) is MY shape. This is my figure. *big grins*

I'm loving my body so much more, yes because I am smaller, but moreso because I'm now healthier (and recent blood tests have proven this :-) ). I can't tell you how much happier I am with myself now. Again, yes it's because I'm smaller, I won't lie about that. I am much happier about my looks now. But that's not all it is, not by far. I have a newfound confidence in myself. But really, it's the little things that because I've never experienced before, I didn't know how good it could be. Like it not being an effort to get up off the floor (try doing that when you're classed as obese on the bmi). It's little shit like that, that you don't even notice until it's been happening for awhile. Or how I can now walk in the shopping centre with Him and not struggle to keep up with His pace (and sometimes even being ahead). He's over 6 foot tall and I'm only 5 foot 4.

Anyway, now that I've gotten off topic......Hope you enjoy the photo as much as I'm enjoying my new shape and, of course, my new bum! :-D


*If you don't want to take my word for it, check out my previous pics of my bum. I'm sure you'll be able to see the difference.

Soapy HNT (Part IV)

Today brings the last picture in this series. Parts One, Two and Three can be found here, here & here.

I've deliberately left this one to last because it is my absolute favourite! I hope you all like it as much as I do.

Remember to check out Os to see who else is half-nekkid today!

Soapy HNT

Mid last year I made my first jerk video for Daddy. I took some still shots from that and used them for HNT (which can be found here, here and here). Last week I made my second jerk video for Him, and again I have taken some still shots from it that I will be using for the next few HNT's. I present to you the first:

Don't forget to visit Os to see who else got their gear off this week!
And remember there's always The Other HNT (NSFW as usual).

Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday to you all!

2008 Fave HNT

I'm relatively new to HNT as I only started May this year, but I've really enjoyed it so far. And I'm looking forward to more HNT's this year (especially now that we have a new aka better camera!)

Okay, so Daddy and I chose the same picture as our favourite of the year.

I still stand by what I said in October. The original photo I imitated was beautiful. And thinking about this photo, the more I think that I should re-create this photo this coming year when more of my weight loss goals are reached along the way.

Daddy and I wish you all the best for 2009. My readers, those of you I don't really know, I look forward to learning more about you from comments and/or emails to me. And for those of you I do know, I can't wait to hear more of your dirty & kinky little secrets! ;-)

Have a good one xox

Christmas Cheer

Merry Christmas to you all!

Well I'm back after spending a few days with my family in the town where I grew up. Unfortunately Mum was (and still is) sick, so that put a bit of a damper on it. But all in all, I had a really good time. This year I was more excited about giving out presents than getting any of my own (as was shown by me being the last to open presents). I bought Him a digital camera (which was needed), and a couple of seasons of House on dvd. The complete set of M.A.S.H on dvd was a present for a family member (from all of us) and my mum got some lovely Italian drinking glasses that she was after, as well as many other things.

And what did I get? Chocolates, Singstar game and many other things, but the best present I received this year (and the least expected)....an iPod Touch (16GB). Talk about shocked! I first saw the ad on tv one night and just said "that's so cool" (with much enthusiasm). I've been obsessed ever since I got it 3days ago. And I couldn't wait to come home so I could connect it all up and download some awesome apps. I'm even using it now as I type this :-)

Here's a pic I took on my iPod from an application (Spawn Illuminati):

I LOVE this application!

So what else happened? Christmas dinner was yum yum yum! Roast chicken, pork, turkey, vegies, yummy potato bake (made by me), and so much I can't even recall at the moment. It was hot back home, so most of the time was spent hibernating in the air conditioned area of the house, which wasn't all that bad, just bad when you had to go outside of the two rooms for something. We took with us a board game we bought awhile ago. Spy Alley was so much more fun to play with more than two people. And I even won a game...guessed all of their secret identities! Yay for me.

Umm, I didn't get a chance to post my Christmas HNT, so I'm going to do something a little different. Rather than name three specific people to give something to, I'm going to state what I'd give all my readers (if I could).

These are loved and adored here in Australia. They are the yummiest biscuits ever. And who can turn down a chocolate-covered biscuit? Especially when it's double coated! So anyway, my Christmas Gift for you all is an endless supply of Tim Tam's.

So, with that, I wish you all the very best for this festive season. Enjoy the holidays and the time spent with loved ones.

What Santa Sees Through My Window....

Clickity-Click!!

Merry Christmas / Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!
Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday!

Don't forget to check out Os and see who else has participated this week. And check out the themes for the coming 2 week's.

Ps - Check out my friend's HNT for this week.

Another step HNT

I saw a beautiful picture once of a pretty lady. She was sitting just as I am and she was naked, but all her 'naughty' bits were covered; the picture had taste. It was beautiful and I was drawn to it. Ever since then, I've wanted to re-create the picture, except with me in it. Now that I'm happy with my body, more so than ever before, I decided to take this picture of me.

It is just one of many significant steps that I have taken and will take on my journey. Enjoy!


And don't forget to check out Os @ and you can see who else has participated too! Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday to you all!

Dressing up for Daddy HNT

Hi everyone. This week has been super busy...coming up to the end of semester for uni and whatnot. As I've been so busy, I haven't had the chance to take some new pics for HNT. This is part of a photo that Daddy took of me when I dressed up as His little girl (with pigtails and all!). I was bent over the kitchen table with my skirt pulled up, showing my arse when He took this. Mmm...such fun and hot memories!

Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday to you all!

Study HNT

Sometimes I study like this, but on the weekends it's without panties, lying on my stomach, with my legs slightly apart for Daddy. For what I do on those other occasions....you'll have to click.

(time to click!)

Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday!

And don't forget, if you're participating, or want to see who else is participating, visit Os.

Bare back HNT

I thought I would show off one of my favourite things about myself this week. My long hair.
Happy Half Nekkid Thursday everyone!

And don't forget to check out Os to see who else has joined in the HNT fun this week. And check out the mystery girl, and don't forget to click!

Something Different HNT

Hi everyone. Had an early (and very cold start) this morning (Brrrrr!)
Okay, so my pics (so far) have included my legs, my bum (more than once) and a torso (kinda) shot. I thought I would do something a little different today.
Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday to you all!

HNT Kisses

Given my weight loss, I've had to buy some new knickers (no really, it's not just an excuse!)
Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday!

Pink Bits

Oh, aren't I naughty? Just sharing a little bit of skin with you all.
Have I tempted you? Do you want to see more?

HNT #3

This week's edition of HNT has come from a jerk movie I filmed for Daddy earlier this week.


(I had fun making it; Daddy had fun jerking to it; & I'm now having fun with the editing software!)

Happy HNT!

Well, I guess this means I'm no longer a HNT virgin doesn't it? Hope this is an alright pic for my first HNT.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to you all! I hope you enjoy the picture, I couldn't help but post this, especially considering the standard gift is flowers at this time of the year.

I wish you all the best for February 14th, whether you're with your loved one or apart, or maybe you haven't found them yet.

For those of you lucky enough to be with the one you love, don't take it for granted and enjoy the time you have together. I wish you lots of fun (both naughty and nice) and happiness.

For those of you that are apart from your loved one at this time, don't despair, because I'm away from mine too. I know it's sad to be apart, but someday soon you'll be with them again, and when you are together...cherish the time you have and enjoy each other's company.

And last but not least, to those who are reading this but haven't found that special someone yet, I say this...be patient, and don't rush it. Wait for Cupid and his arrow to strike you, he knows best. I was struck when I least expected it (that's the way it usually happens), and I wouldn't change it for the world. Don't fret, your time will come and believe me, when it does, nobody will be able to wipe that grin off your face.

So I'll say it again, Happy Valentine's Day everyone and enjoy your day, however it turns out! I wish all of you all the best at this time.


Lucy