Tuesday, March 04, 2014
It's been a long time....
Friday, May 14, 2010
I want....
I want lust
I want your eyes to linger when you look at me
I want your heart to beat faster as you think of me
I want to give you butterflies as your thoughts jumble and your legs give way beneath you
I want you to be distracted by the thought of me, at the most inappropriate of times
I want you to imagine and fantacise about all the things you want to do to me
I want you to want me
Monday, May 03, 2010
Questions Questions Questions
What sorts of new experiences are you wanting to try over the next year that you've never tried before?
I’ll be honest; this is the most difficult question to answer. I’m not someone who specifically sets out certain things or experiences I want to do, at least not in the short term. So my best answer for this comes in two parts: a) reaching my goal weight and experiencing what that feels like; and b) getting my clit hood pierced. Both of these I’m planning on having done/completed by the end of this year. It’s been over two and a half years since I’ve had anything pierced (my nipples) and I’m getting that need/itch again, so I’ve decided that this year it is :-) I would like to also get my inner labia pierced at some point, and have been contemplating that for this year as well, but we’ll see.
What are five achievements that you are especially proud of?
Graduating from High school
Being accepted into University
Changing my life to improve my health, and losing the weight that I have (and I’ll be even more proud when I reach my goal weight)
Caring for a very close relative of mine when they were terminally ill. Although not an achievement as such, it’s an experience that has forever changed the person I am and I’m proud to have done what I did.
And because I’ve spent enough time between when I was asked these questions to actually posting the answers, and I can’t think of a fifth, I’m going to leave it at four.
What do you wear to bed? Is it different from what you actually sleep in?
After I shower I feel relaxed and like to keep it that way. I’ll answer this in two parts: summer and winter.
During the warmer months, I wear as little as possible. Most likely it’s a t-shirt or singlet, generally without anything underneath. As for the bottom half, it depends a lot on what mood I’m in. Sometimes it’s just knickers, while other nights it’s either shorts or a skirt (more often than not, it’s without knickers). As for what I sleep in: knickers only. I’ve grown accustomed to sleeping topless and on the rare occasions that I don’t, I’ll most likely be wearing a hugging singlet because I don’t like too much movement with my clothes as I move a lot while sleeping.
During the cooler months I wear what keeps me warm, which is generally my flannel pj’s without anything underneath. I’m not a big fan of having my feet covered, so unless I really have to I don’t put socks or slippers on. As for what I actually sleep in, it’s not all that different from when it’s warmer. With standard blankets and an electric blanket as another option, I’ll always opt for purely just my knickers, or nothing. On very, very rare occasions I’ll wear socks to bed. However, I can pretty much guarantee that by morning they won’t be on my feet.
Where are five places in the world that you want to visit before you die?
What was the last really bad movie you saw?
This was an easy question to answer, if not the easiest. District 9. We hired it on DVD and I left Him to watch it by Himself. Very rarely will I start watching a movie and refuse to continue to the end. Even if I’m not particularly enjoying it, I’m generally curious enough to watch just to see how everything all plays out. With this one though, I just couldn’t. I wasn’t curious enough (and didn’t care) because it didn’t spark my interest. Surprisingly though, it was a movie that I was looking forward to seeing. I thought I would like it, but just didn’t.
Even though this isn’t part of the question, I thought I would share some of the movies that I’ve seen recently that I really enjoyed: The Lovely Bones, Hot Tub Time Machine, Kiss Ass, and Charlie & Boots (these aren't in best to worst order, just random).
Thursday, January 28, 2010
HNT - Confidence
Check out who else participated in HNT this week.
* The only alteration I have made to this photo is removing identifying marks in order to protect my anonymity.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Ch...Ch...Ch...Changes
It has been almost two years since I became sick and started losing weight. Almost two years that have been full of tears, determination, fears, sweat, uncertainty, self-doubt, pain, joy, happiness, adjustment and so much more. I am not the same person I was then. I couldn’t be with all the changes and everything that has happened.
As I write this, my total weight loss is 32kg (70.5lbs). I’ve lost 5 dress sizes and goodness only knows how many inches. These aren’t the only things I’ve lost; I’ve also lost my self-identity, self-consciousness, countless outfits that I adored and many other things. However, there are many things that I have gained over this time as well. A new self-identity, self-confidence that I have never known before, the freedom to walk into any clothing store and not having to worry about whether anything will fit me, and last but not least my health and knowing that I’ve added many more years to my life.
There are not enough words or enough space on my blog to explain all the ways I’ve changed (and no doubt you would be bored if I listed them all). However, I can share with you what all this has done for me. As clichéd as it sounds, this has been a big, long, eye-opening and extremely personal journey. I’ve done a lot of soul searching, a lot of thinking, and a mass of writing during this time. I’ve learnt and realised so much more about myself that I thought I would, and I’m better for it. I know myself, my emotions (and the reasons behind these) better than I ever have before. I believe I am a better me for going through this, because I have discovered the real and true me. I’m still adjusting to everything and probably will be for some time to come. After all, I haven’t reached my goal weight yet, but I am close.
Putting aside the obvious health benefits, the best part of this journey is how I now feel about myself. I never thought that I would be satisfied or content with being me. And many years ago I gave up on being the person I wanted to be. I had (grudgingly) accepted that I would always be fat and that that was just something I had to live with. How I feel about myself now, is something I only ever dreamed about, but never thought I would actually experience. For the very first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am truly happy with being who I am, with being me.
I am not perfect now that I’ve lost weight, and I never will be (but perfection is not my goal). I still have lessons to learn, and improvements to make and that’s okay. Just like it’s okay that there are physical aspects to my body that I would like to improve. However, if (for whatever reason) my body had to say the way it is right now, I would be content, I would be satisfied, but most of all I would be happy. I would be lying if I said that I found this easy. I haven’t. But to come out at the other end of this, knowing I’m a better (and healthier) version of me, is and has been worth it.
And it’s such a great feeling to finally feel sexy naked.
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Opportunity
She was waiting for the holidays; looking forward to all the naughty fun they could have together. And then He got sick. Every day she would wake up with an ache between her legs, hoping that today was the day He would be feeling much better. However, each new day found Him just as sick as the one before.
Two weeks later and He’s still sick. It’s after dinner and she knows He’s not feeling well enough for what she wants to be doing. With Him busy watching tv, she takes this opportunity and quietly exits to the bedroom. Straight away she proceeds to her bedside drawer, the one that keeps her toys, her lovers. Her whole body tingles thinking about her lover’s cock, but tonight there is no time. She reaches in and retrieves her baby blue waterproof vibe. As quickly as it’s retrieved, the old batteries are replaced by new ones and she makes her way into the bathroom.
She undresses quickly, almost ripping her clothes off. The hot water is turned onto high, steaming up the glass. In one swift movement she sinks down; her back against the wall and legs splayed open. Her hand dives down to find her clit erect and begging for attention. With limited time, it’s only a matter of seconds before she places the vibe on her clit and turns it on. She masturbates as His words replay in her mind. The promise of Him taking her arse again, of making it a regular priority.
She soaps up her other hand and plays with a nipple, allowing a soft sigh to escape her lips. She increases the speed of the vibe as she rests more of her weight against the wall. She’s getting closer, thinking about having His cock in her arse again. Conscious of the time that has passed she wonders if He’s going to come looking for her soon. The thought of Him catching her masturbating is a fantasy that has made her gush on countless occasions. Tonight will be no different. Her toes curl under as she cums, hoping He’s going to walk in at that very moment and catch her.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
My 200th Post!
I'm going to toot my own horn here a (little) bit, but I wanted to share with you all how well I did this past term at uni. I was studying two courses and received a High Distinction (my first) and a Distinction, as well as topping the class for both. With this being the best term I've had so far since I started, I can't help but be proud of myself and want to share the news. And as of the end of the term, I can now say that I have achieved all possible marks, from a Fail right through to a High Distinction. Enough of self promotion, let's move on, shall we?
I haven't been up to a whole lot on my time off, but am loving it. It gives me a chance to do all those things I can't do throughout the term. Like learning how to use photoshop (still working on this), reading books that aren't set text's etc. Although it's nice to have the time off, I kinda feel like it's a bit wasted. With less than 10 courses left to complete until I graduate, it's so close (graduation) that I can almost touch it. Knowing that it's right there, just out of my reach, makes me want it all that more sooner, which makes time off all that more bitter-sweet.
As I said earlier I have some posts that I'm working on, and as soon as I'm happy with them, I'll be sharing them with you. And hoping I get some comments on them too (hint, hint). For the moment though, I thought I would ask if any of you have any questions you would like me to answer. Is there something you've always been wondering about me? Or would you like to know what my personal opinion is on a certain topic? Feel free to email them (his.lucy@gmail.com) or leave them in the comments for me. I won't say that I will answer every one, but ask away. You'll never know if you don't ask.
Stay safe & have fun
Lucy xoxox
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Update and stuff
Other than going away on holidays it's been business as usual around here. Uni is going really well this term with my overall mark so far sitting between 80% and 85%. And I'm really enjoying the subjects, which is a good thing. Other than that nothing much else has been going on.
Last piece of business....have you all entered BBG's Anniversary Blog Contest? The details can be found if you just click on the link there. Here's my wishlist (or what I've added so far).
BBG's Anniversary Contest
Go on, go check it out, I'm about to put my entry in just as soon as I've finished typing this!
Here’s what you can win as the entries increase:
If BBG gets 100 people to enter, the prize package is worth approximately $2000! So go and get your entries in!!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Sugasm One Seven Zero
This Week’s Picks
The fundamental things apply…
“If you can’t fuck me with your mouth, how are you going to handle fucking all of me at once?”
Perfection
“Patiently, he took his time touching me here and there.”
The Study Date (Sugarbutch Star: Green-Eyed Girl)
“I bet she’s already wet.”
Sugasm Editor
Wardrobe Malfunction
Editor’s Choice
3a.m. Vulnerability
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Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Daddy's proud slut
The freckled spots on my breasts from last night, evidence of how He likes to hurt me. Groping, twisting, turning, slapping. Causing me to wince with pain and moan with pleasure.
The pink bite size area on the top of my right breast from two nights ago. Slightly faded but still easily seen. And still sore to touch.
The long pink mark on one side of my neck. Blood drawn to the surface two nights ago, still lingering to remind me that i'm His. That i belong to Him.
My breath quickens, and my cunt aches seeing His marks on me.
Daddy, i proudly wear your marks of control and domination.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Differences: Now & Then
I hadn’t thought about it until I was having a conversation with a group of people whom I only had only met a couple of days earlier. One asked: “Do people treat you differently now?” Now meaning: that I am 25kg’s lighter and no longer fat.
I’ve thought about this a fair amount since that conversation. And because of it (the conversation), I’m now more aware of how people treat me. And I spend more time thinking about how they’ve treated me as well.
I work in Customer Service, customers are my job. I know how to properly greet you so that you’ll feel warm and welcome where I work. I’ll ask enough vague, but personal questions, and respond friendly enough, that you’ll feel that I’m familiar to you. And then I’ll do my job and send you on your way with a smile on my face and a promise to “See you next time!”
Because of my awesome skills to do all this ;-) and for it to be second nature, I critique others. Kinda. While I don’t rate them on a scale from say 1-10, I am critical of how I’m treated as a customer. I hate loathe it when people who are serving customers 1) Do not smile; 2) Do not have a personality of any sort (Come on! You’re nothing but a sponge in there?! Everyone has some kind of personality!); 3) Hold out their hand in anticipation of you paying them (A note to those of you that do this and are reading: This is just greedy. You’re going to get your (company’s) money, so just wait until I’m ready to give it to you. You wouldn’t have to put your hand up if I magically wished for the correct change, and I wouldn’t have to be served by you if my order was taken by a robot and my meal technologically appeared on the table just as I sat down. Look, just don’t fucking do it! And the same goes for customers who do this. Did you leave your manners at home today?); 4) Act as though I’m annoying you and stopping you from being somewhere way more important. (To my readers that fit this description: This is your job. You do this, to earn money so you can go out and buy the latest craze 15 and 16 yr olds are into today. Yes, these are the teenagers, which CLEARLY have better and more important places to be. You have a job to do. Do it. Period. And if you are that person, leave now. This is an adult blog intended for adults only.) More things annoy me, but I’m slightly off track, so I’ll get back to my point.
I hate to say it, but yes, I am treated differently now. Now that I’m not fat. Now that my figure is hourglass and not round. Now that I don’t have the start of a double chin.
Okay, so I’m easier on the eye now. But does that really deserve you treating me better than when I was 25kg’s heavier? No, no it does not. I didn’t treat you any differently when I was fat. I’ve been in customer service for 5yrs now, and I know how to be a good customer, and I know how to be a good customer service representative. I am a good customer to everyone, until something you do or say makes me feel less happy. Simple as that, you all start at the same level, where I am my friendly, nice, happy self, but if you do one of those things mentioned above, I will think twice about how big I smile or if I even smile when I leave. (Clearly the holding out the hand thing is something that really pisses me off, so that’s an instant explosion down to “Oh she didn’t!” and you get nothing more from me.)
I could understand this if I was in the
If anyone can enlighten me, please do, because I’m at a loss to see what it could be that’s causing them to be nicer to me now. Are all people really that shallow? Is it even a conscious decision?
*I must note that although I focused more on how I’m treated as a customer, strangers on the street are friendlier towards me now that I’m thinner. Just in case you were wondering.
Would love to hear some feedback on this one! Pretty please??
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Damp Down Under
I'm horny for four out of four weeks in a month. Yes, all four. Although I'm not super, mega, heavy duty horny all the time (like I was in the week beforehand), I am always aroused and ready for sex.
I couldn't calculate, in a day, the amount of time I spend touching my clit or playing with my lips, or casually dipping in the tip of a finger. My hands have a mind of their own. I'll be watching TV and become aware of the hand between my legs, curiously & quietly masturbating. Every single time I wake up through the night I am wet, and one of my hands is between my legs, rubbing my clit.
I am constantly aroused.
I am the typical teenage boy in a woman's body. Yes, I do fantasise about women, but that's not what I mean. As a result of my state of arousal, I'm always thinking about sex. Fantasising about trying new things; thinking of different ways to seduce Him; thinking about how I could take advantage of the situation and masturbate. However much I love being aroused and thinking about sex, it's devilishly frustrating at times.
So if it were my choice, how often would I want it? Sex, I would want daily. Hell, what am I talking about if's for? I do want it everyday! Okay, so if it were my choice, how often would I actually get it? Daily, preferably in the mornings or afternoons (that's my thing at the moment). I hear you ask about masturbation? Daily as well :-)
If you were as horny as often and for as long as I am, wouldn't you take advantage of the it? I bet you would ;-)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
TMI Tuesday #195
No, I have not. Nor do I know of anyone who has.
2. When masturbating, as you reach orgasm, do you continue to stimulate yourself without interruption, or do you stop and apply pressure until your spasms subside? Or?
I continue to stimulate until I can't take it any more, then I ease off. I'm still spasming after everything has stopped.
3. Have you ever video'ed yourself while masturbating (solo)? Where are they now?
Hell yeah, you've also seen some still shots from the video's. They are saved on both my computer & His as well as being burnt onto disc.
4. Have you ever looked at porn online? Have you ever posted at porn online?
Yes, I've looked at porn online. Who hasn't? Posted...debatable.
5. Do you send/recieve dirty email jokes and pictures?
Hell yeah, and on a regular basis. Video's too lol
Bonus: Have you ever told someone they were good in bed when they weren't?
No. I'd rather be up front and discuss it with them so future sex is better for both of us.
Monday, July 06, 2009
Moments
I fell in love with you, all over again last night.
The way you held me and gently whispered into my ear how beautiful I was.
How you touched me lovingly, exploring my body.
How you looked at me, like I was all you could see.
We have the movie, hallmark moments too. It’s just that ours don’t have a soundtrack and aren’t being filmed.
Last night was my hallmark moment.
I love you handsome
Monday, June 29, 2009
Naughty Lucy's Cravings
My latest sexual cravings are:
- loving, romantic sex, where we both cum at the same time.
- to be spanked. I want to be vulnerable, with my arse up in the air, awaiting each blow, waiting for the heat and the pain.
- to start wearing my collar again. With my collar secured around my neck, I know my place. My mindset changes and I know who I am and what I must do. I miss being His slut.
- to have all three of my holes filled. I've been fantasising about having a butt plug up my arse, my dildo in my cunt, and His balls in my mouth (while He jerks).
- anal sex. It's been too long since I've felt His cock in my arse. I want Him to fuck my arse. I want to be on top with His cock buried in me. I want to feel Him cum in my arse.
- to be restrained. I miss the feeling of powerlessness when I'm tied up. Having the control taken away from me *sigh*
- to give Him a blow job again. Oh how I'm missing having His cock in my mouth. And I want to start perfecting my skills....I am determined to deep throat without my gag reflex over-reacting.
And the things I've craving, but can't have yet?
- Getting my inner labia pierced.
It's not only the piercing I'm looking forward to, it's seeing what they look like after they're done. Playing with them when they've fully healed. And the possibility of Him locking them together as a way of masturbation control. Or His interest in stretching. I have to admit that I am curious about that and the use of weights.
- Getting my clit hood pierced.
Boy am I looking forward to getting this done! If my sensitivity increases for this, anything like it did when I got my nipples pierced, I am going to be one very happy woman! :-)
- Enjoying the use of a fucking machine.
But, as I said, given the price of these, I don't think I'll be getting one for a long time. Hmm....what big events have I got coming up that I could request this as a present? Graduating from Uni? Couple years away yet....would love it before then. Reaching my goal weight? I'm hoping to be there by Christmas. Do you think that 39kg's (85.9lbs) is an awesome enough effort/reason to buy a fucking machine? ;-) I can dream, can't I?
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Winter Update
The sore throat has gone, as have the sniffles (well almost all gone), but now I've got the annoying bloody cough which is persisting. I've been sick for almost two weeks now :-(
The other night when Daddy and I were playing, He couldn't resist and kissed me, which is now why He's sick. Even though as soon as He did it I said "Don't blame me if you get sick", I still feel bad. They say there's a 1 in 16 chance of catching a cold from someone if you kiss them while they're sick. Well, I can tell you, he only kissed me once, so our luck isn't too good at the moment obviously.
I hate being sick, as do most people. But the one thing that I've come to realise this time, is how much I can't stand not being able to kiss Him. It's been driving me batty! I've always known that kissing is one activity that I really enjoy, but to not be able to do it is torture (and not in the good sense) :-)
A good kiss can make me weak at the knees and tremble in anticipation of what's to come (if anything). It can make my heart pound and my stomach flutter. It can give me goosebumps. It can be exactly what I want, or it can leave me waiting for more.
I can't wait until I'm better again, because although I'm missing all of these things in not being able to kiss Him, the one thing I'm missing more than all is the fact that Daddy has grown his beard and moustache back for the winter *big grins*
This is how He was when we first got together. His facial hair takes me back to the early days, which were troublesome, but adventurous. Innocent and yet so full of naughtiness and debauchery. Not to mention the fact that the tickling of His beard and mo is the one type of tickling that I would ask for, in various places over my body ;-)
And speaking of body hair, I've let my leg hair grow back. I'm not sure how long it's been since I last shaved, but it's at least over a month, maybe two. It's strange to have it back again, after having gotten into the routine of shaving my legs. Although I'm definitely not complaining for the extra warmth on these chilly nights we've been having. My underarm hair is back as well, although it's only been a couple of weeks since I stopped shaving that. We'll see how it goes, for the moment both my underarm and leg hair is staying. And afterall, with Daddy growing His facial hair for me, it's only fair that He gets to enjoy my body hair too :-)
Sugasm #167
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #168? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.
This Week’s Picks
Every Time You Orgasm, An Angel Gets Its Wings
“There is nothing that screams “fuck you” to the pain and the hurt in the world than screaming “fuck me” to the person in your bed.”
HNT: Spanked
“I wasn’t sure how I felt about him. But tonight, I was sure.”
A Thousand Kisses
“This wasn’t enough. I knew that I had to try something else.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself
Congratulations, you’re invited!
Sugasm Editor
Sex Work And Honesty: Religion
Editor’s Choice
Food, fun and commitment
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Thursday, June 04, 2009
Three years......And counting!
Today marks 3 years since I started this blog. Although I’ve gone back and read a few of my earlier posts, I haven’t been caught up in reminiscing. Not at the moment at least. However, in reading some of my earlier posts I can see how much I’ve changed and grown. How much our relationship has changed, and how much more mature I have become in those three short years. I dare say that this is most obvious to me, rather than you or my family and friends, but perhaps you can see the differences too.
As I’m currently away visiting family and celebrating my birthday, this is just a short post to thank you all for sharing this journey with me and continually showing me support by coming back to a) read what I’ve written, b) perve on me (and the pictures I post) & c) leaving me comments.
I’m grateful for each and every one of you and the words of encouragement you leave me. I hope you’ll stick around and continue the journey with me.
Happy Thursday everyone!
Until I get back,
Lucy xox
Friday, May 29, 2009
Sugasm #166
The best of this week’s blogs by the bloggers who blog them. Highlighting the top 3 posts as chosen by Sugasm participants. Want in Sugasm #167? Submit a link to your best post of the week using this form. Participants, repost the link list within a week and you’re all set.
This Week’s Picks
Bare-Assed Cheek (2): Punishment and Reward
“His finger glides up the inner side of my left thigh.”
Lilly’s Turn - Part 1: Wherein a Power Play is Made
“I asked her, outright, if she considered herself submissive.”
…please…
“Exquisite pain heralding exquisite surrender.”
Mr. Sugasm Himself
Is Sasha Grey going mainstream?
Sugasm Editor
A Difficult Scenario
Editor’s Choice
Just Looking
